Life

Life sucks for everybody at some point in their life and for me its everyday! I hurt everyday and I know why I always hope its something else buts not its more than that its love! Love is what brings me down and thats why I am always hurting is because my heart is broken and the one person who broke it will never be able to fix it ever again! Maybe one day but that one day is a long ways away and something will have happened by then! It hurts even more knowing who he likes and wondering what they have that you don't have is another thing that brings me down more than anything in life. I think all the time about what I did wrong to lose the best thing i have ever had and not knowing what I did really makes me hurt even more than I already do. Some people say it takes time to heel but what if you never heel from it then what? What else is there in life besides hate? I need to know cause as life goes on time will never heel. And will never have anybody. I always think that i am special but i'm not and i know that now since I am not with the one person that i truely love with all my heart and i will never know the really reason that we broke up in the first place. The most hard part is that I can't talk to my parents cause they don't know that I date. I feel really alone right now sitting in my bedroom on my bed crying I just wish he knew how I feel about him. He is my love my never ending love! and i wish i knew how he felt about me. he is my everything and he needs to know that. will he please just stay my baby!